Funny how God speaks to me sometimes.
Today I attended a bridal shower for a friend that I have literally known all my life. I am so happy for her and felt so blessed to share her special day with her, but there was some internal battles going on. I realized that, out of all the girls I grew up attending church with, I am now the only one who isn't engaged or married. Plus, it was hard to have other shower guests walk up to me and say, "Are you home for the weekend?" and having to tell them that no, I live at home and I have been living at home for over a year now.
I ended up going home feeling stressed out. Why is it that all my friends have found their careers and the men of their dreams, and I haven't? I am serving in Americorps until August and then I will be in Spain for a year, but what am I doing after that? Graduate school for teacher certification? How am I going to pay for it? And is it worth it, or will these changes taking place flood the market with unemployed teachers? If I'm not supposed to be a teacher, than what am I going to do with my life? And am I ever going to meet someone that I can spend the rest of my life with? Or am I never going to do the one thing I've always dreamed of doing: being a wife and a mom?
I was trying to wind down before bed and I was just browsing youtube, and I typed in Brooke Barretsmith out of curiosity- my brother was actually friends with her before she made it big in the music world, and I haven't had much opportunity to hear her. I clicked on this song, never having heard it before...and I knew a few lines into it that I hadn't clicked it by chance! What a great reminder from God to enjoy the moments I'm in and trust Him with the future!
